"I dated this stupid guy for four years and in that four years, I had five abortions for him. The last abortion was particularly traumatic. We broke up four years ago and within a year he was married to someone else. He has two kids with his wife who is a co-worker he cheated on me with.
"I moved on with my life and fortunately met a great guy in 2012. I married him in early 2013 and a year later I haven’t gotten pregnant yet. I went to see a doctor in December last year and after carrying out tests he asked me if I’d ever had an abortion. I initially lied but owned up after I realized how serious it was. The doctor said that I may have destroyed part of my womb but will keep treating me and I should be hopeful.
"I know that my ex-stupid boyfriend and his wife are expecting their third child and this makes me very angry…
"I may never be able to have children and that guy who caused it is living a fulfilling life. Short of having him killed, I don’t know what else to do. The anger I feel inside is immense and I’m gradually losing my sanity. I wrote an email to my ex and copied his wife explaining what was going on with me, and they both ignored me.
"How do I forgive this man and myself? There’s nothing I want more than to be a mum. I’m going out of my mind and I am so bitter. Can anyone help? Please how can I help myself?"